i know

i know i shouldn't be telling you this much
but i did
regret sounds ungrateful
and relief, strangely, is not all it cracked up to be
the water is clear
yet my thoughts are cloudy at best
the glass chimes at a thousand notes, all at once
as it graced the cold hard floor
yet all i hear is you.

i know i should've left first
but i didn't
i know you never will, and i never can
yet i hope for more than politeness
to break these walls i keep to keep myself sane
voices tell me to do things i sorely want to
yet all i hear is you.

i know for sure maybe you won't be reading this
cowardice is a balm
ignorance is the cure

still all i hear is you.