hello again

pardon me for saying this
but i don't think you know me like you used to
it's not that you forgot my name
or anything like that
it's just that you keep mentioning others' more
and that escalating phone bill is made up from many long-distance calls
to other numbers
but mine.

pardon me for saying this
but i resent catching you staring vacantly
at the walls behind me
or that stranger with weird hair as he walks by
whenever i try to tell you how my day was
and how i almost ran over the red light on my way here
and the reasons i hate tomatoes.

pardon me for being this bitter
i know nothing gives me power to get possessive
but i always thought
jealousy
is flattering.

maybe i should hang up now.